Hello, fellow creatives. It's been a beast of a year, and it's only Feb 10th.
Right?
Well, it is what it is. I dunno even know how to start this blog. Usually, I am the one who is always positive and optimistic, but this month gave us blow after blow.
Personally, my family had to evacuate twice. We are grateful that we still have our apartment and that nothing worse than having to spend money on hotels, losing work, and experiencing a lot of stress and anxiety happened to us. Many of my friends and colleagues were not so lucky.
No one can deny that politics has played a huge part in the constant dread that is happening. It doesn't even matter if you live in America or not; it's not good. I grew up under the constant worry about WW3 breaking out. Yup, I'm GenX, and we were told that we would never see 30 because of the nuclear war that would happen. Back then, it was how I lived and did everything, including not taking my studies or anything as seriously as I probably should have.
Now, it feels like we are right back there, and our current administration isn't making anyone feel better. Shockwaves around the world are being felt, and we are all helpless, or at least, that's how it feels to us.
So, how do we create? How does one wake up every day worried that they might die soon or that they will soon lose everything and still write, act, draw, direct, or whatever you do? How do we do that?
Well, you just have to.
WE HAVE TO as a collective.
Entertainers always help the masses get through difficult times, and it's been that way throughout history. Our calling as creatives isn't just for when times are good; one side always thinks that it's not good no matter what. Our creative calling is for all times.
I am a romance and comedy writer. I am currently pitching two feature comedies and a couple of TV holiday romances. I am also revising, taking classes, and having write togethers with other writers via Zoom.
I am also an artist.
This said, I wake up every day in fear. I'm scared for my life, for the life of others, for our safety, for the world, and dread, worry, terror have taken up a lot of free rent in my head.
It's hard. I am not okay with what's happening in my country. The country that my father came to after being in WW2 as a teenager in Italy. The horrors he saw and why he chose to come here are things that I never understood or even wanted to try to comprehend. Honestly, I used to think, "all that is in the past" but now, here we are.
It's hard to get up and write. It's hard to be funny, it's hard to be positive and it's near impossible to go along with our lives like things are normal.
And I'm an American citizen born and raised here. I'm a white woman who was born here and I'm scared every day. I'm a woman. That's enough to be worried.
Social media is full of people tearing each other down, even on the same side. It's heartbreaking. Everyone is craving comfort, but there isn't a lot right now.
I feel physically ill most days.
BUT
I will press on.
I have to.
I wrote a comedy last year that is very relevant to things happening in the world, and it has a happy ending and tons of heart. It's out in the world but I will be more proactive to get it a home and out in the world. Even if it does, that may not change things that are happening but at least it's a goal.
I'm writing TV holiday films and must focus on them because they make me happy. Since 2016, Hallmark movies have been my comfort. I need them in my life and I believe others feel the same.
As I start to ramble here, you can tell my mind is already wandering to the great fear that lives inside me, but I will write, I will draw-I will create!
Will you?
Please tell me how you are doing and what you are working on.
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